Mummies Can't Be Sick

A bad cough crept into my system on Friday, followed with over all body ache. Yesterday, when we sent of Tuyam to the airport, it got worse. I started having a bad headache. What timing! Here I was sending off my domestic helper cum baby sitter for her 1 month vacation, and the fever, cough virus eagerly came for a visit. Without a maid, we couldn't really care for Zara. I got weaker. I continued to nurse her (which I'm not sure if it was such a good idea under such condition), and tried to just watch over her while lying on the bed. Daddy, although is a good play mate, isn't such a great child carer. We sent an SOS to mum in law. She agreed to help out and would stay a night at our place. For the rest of the weekends, I laid in bed all the time with a very bad fever, and was vomiting out anything that I ate. Mum in law was the one caring for Zara for the 2 days, but Zara was fretting a lot. She preferred mummy. Anytime when she was changed in the room, Zara would reach for me. After a feed, she would want to stay for a while near me, leaning her head on my chest, lying next to me playing with my fingers or my pendant. I dare not give her kisses, worry that I may pass the virus to her, but couldn't help giving her some cuddles and hugs. You can't be sick being a mum, the baby needs you, and nobody can replace you. This is even more true if you are still nursing the baby. I was glad, I got better at night. Still weak, but my headache and vomiting had stopped. I didn't know then that the week was going to be a long one.....